Do you ever feel that someone you know for the longest time will suddenly be drifted away? This is not about you. Its about me being weird all along.

Come to think if its like all your sadness and happiness in the same time will be fine as fcuk. But its not.

I'm so lonely without you. That's my last words that I typed a while ago in my twitter. But I need to conquer this all alone for the better version of myself.

I didn't know where to start and compromise myself for not doing the things I want to do. My mind is still confused about whats going on with the world.

Still don't know where am I going. I have plans but theres a lot of thing going on my mind. The what ifs. The if evers. The why does.... I don't what it is called but I need to get a life and fix my shit now.

I'm twenty. yes, I've been living here on earth for two decades now and still wondering what to do to be productive and use my given talent and skills to whatever.

I admit I messed up a lot of times and done mistakes that I ever regret for everyday.
I'm not perfect, no ones perfect and I'm blaming myself for the things that I've done and still doing. Noted still doing.

How can I ever recover from this depression when it started all along when I was a kid. My everyday routine is to struggle with this emotion and feel that nothings wrong.

I have a secret to tell you. Embrace yourself. Bbbbbbut I can't reveal it here.
Its too censored and I still have trust issues.

You can't keep a promise? Then why do you said so that you can? If you see kaye. you ought utter.

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An excerpt form.
To be continued.
Tick tock tick tock!